its your first time. duh. youre nervous and shy. if he cant understand that then he's just a jerk and not worth it.

Mo N, I would not let you said that about yourself, you are not stupid and a fool. If a guy can't see the real you, that's his fault. If he really love you and like you, he would invest in some time with you and get to know you. That's just how guys are, I hate most of them. They are just so heartless, they take advantage of you just to get what they want, they don't care about the consiconses or heartbrake that they cause as long as they got what they want, and I speak from experienced. He probably said no because you said no to him in the first place, he was just mad because if you said no to a guy if he asked you out or something like that, it would hurt his feelings and his pride, ego, and everything. So he probably is just sad and mad at you. Explain to him that you really want to love him and said no only because of your parents. Girlfriend, don't said that to your self, I'm shy too, but that's because I don't really trust and feel comftable with other people and you probably feel that way about him too. You need time and patient to develope a trusting and comftable relationship with someone, you can't just jump in right away. Let him know that and if he still don't care, forget about him. I think you just need to find someone who would understand you and could handle you. Some one tender, kind, and patient, someone who will be devoted and willing to gave a chance. Young boys are not like that. Who cares if you are obsesses with him, it's true in every relationship. He should learn that that is real. You are not a fool, honey theres billions and billions of men out there, he's just not the right one for you, that's all, because someone that really like you will gave you a chance and will invest in some time for you to get to know you better. This is how love is alot of times in life. you will be hurt and after everything stupid, happens, you'll think that you did something stupid and your a fool and feel ambarassed for doing that but no one can stop love, what has to be done has to be done, we can not stop our feeling, when we have feelings, we would have to tell it, act it, even if it ambarassed us later on. We just have to pick ourself right up. Trust me, this will happens and happens, we all will go through alot of this before we find our perfect sweetie pie. We are all fool. We can't stop our emotion, and you shouldn't, if you love someone and feel like doing someone, do it. If you don't you'll regret it later on. Just find a new man!! =)