Theres this guy i met a while ago and on the day we met he asked me out to the movies.I had to say no cuz of my parents.Anyway i really started liking him and he kissed me. he was the first time someone asked me out, first kiss, and first time i got attention from a guy like that. When i asked if he wanted to be w/ me he said no. I was always shy and nervous around him so i couldn't really let out my personality.I remember one time we were just sitting down together in silence cuz i couldnt think of anything to say

After a while he started to ignore and avoid me at school. I feel like its all my fault cuz i was so shy and nervous around him. he couldnt see my personality.I cud have had him. He prolly thought i was obsessed with him too cuz i saw him a lot at school.=[ I hate myself im so stupid.For once I felt like i was gonna have a bf and I was the happiest girl, i guess i was just a foolone time i even asked him if he thought i was boring and he said yes and then took it back a few minutes later after i told him i was just shy and nervous around him....whatever